Every 3 months, I get a series of Botox shots on my face, head, neck, and shoulders to help with the chronic headaches related to my ruptured brain aneurysm. They help. But, for the first 2 weeks, they make the pain worse.

I had to use my abortive medication this morning before my appointment. I’m lucky this medication works so well for me and gives me minimal side effects.

My blood pressure was high during the appointment. My anxiety has been pretty severe the last month or so. I have a feeling my blood pressure might be high as a result of the anxiety.

Of course, the high blood pressure is only making my anxiety worse. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

I wonder what it feels like to be free of anxiety. The closest I get is to be asleep.

Right now, my neck is stiff from the shots. I can tell I’m going to have a lot of pain. He made me sit up for the neck and shoulder shots. It’s more difficult to relax my muscles while I’m upright. I have found being as relaxed as possible makes the two week hell less hellish. Given how anxious I was, the fact I was upright, and the fact it’s been two hours since my shots and I’m already sore, I know I’m in trouble.

Maybe I’ll get lucky.