After feeling really shitty for days on end, I woke up today and felt ok. No headache, no exhaustion. What’s that feeling? Hunger? Wow, where have you been? Let’s eat!
What brain fog? I’m thinking clearly for once!
I wish I could explain it. I didn’t do anything differently. I didn’t sleep longer than usual. I didn’t take any different medications. I didn’t overdo the caffeine.
I wish I could bottle this and save it for a crappy day, which will be inevitable next week when I work 7 days in a row.
I wish this would last.
I’m not going to push myself into trying to get a million things done while I’m feeling up to it. I know that’ll just make me crash and burn.
I have to “save my spoons.”
For those that don’t know, a “spoonie” is a term for a person living with a chronic illness, such as myself. I have a brain injury.
The Spoon Theory:
A handful of spoons represents your daily energy reserves. Every activity, even mundane, depletes your spoons. Think of things like showering, getting groceries, etc. When you run out of spoons, you can’t manage simple tasks like emptying the dishwasher. When your spoons are depleted, the exhaustion takes over and forces you to rest.
Also, because I have a brain injury, I start the day with fewer spoons than a healthy person. I’m already at a disadvantage.
Today, I feel like I have enough spoons. I haven’t had enough spoons in quite some time.
So, I’m going to ride this little wave of wellness for as long as it will last.
Here’s hoping my spoons last a few days. 🥄